Thankful

Isn't it funny how God always puts us in the right place at the right time?

First example, I wasn't going to come back to Hernando until December...so I could finish my first semester out in Texas, where I originally was going to live. BUT, because of insurance reasons and how I missed my family so...I decided to come back as soon as I could. That was two and a half weeks ago. Praise the Lord that I was here with my mom to support me at the doctor when I found out something was wrong. If in Texas, I don't think that I would be halfway alive I would be so depressed.

Second example, may be minor, but I know that God had His hand in it. Today, I went to register for classes. Every line had a line to be able to get into the next line. Seriously. Well, a couple of students had their babies with them. I started to think about my baby and how I might not be able to do that...and that is when I noticed an old friend from school. She had her mother in law with her...and as I updated her on the pregnancy, her MIL reached out and touched my stomach. She held her hand there, and said to me, "Ya know, you really should stop being so negative about this baby. It feels everything you feel, and if you are positive, this baby will be so much happier. I can tell this baby is going to be perfect." I was shocked, but it really encouraged me.

I believe that God places people in our lives for wonderful reasons and I am so glad that He does. Without the support of friends and family, I don't know where I would be.

My OB called today and wants to see me next week. That means that I will have been seen by doctors at least once a week in this month. I was a bit confused as to why my OB needed to see me, but he explained that he wants to track it along with my specialist to find out as much info as possible. I don't mind taking a look at my baby that often, I am just hoping that it doesn't begin to stress me out too much.

I was in my car today picking up my sister from school, and once again the song that has helped me so much in the past couple of days came on.

I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls I barely hear You whisper through the rain"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

I love the first part that goes, "I was sure by now that you would have reached down and wiped my tears away. Stepped in and saved the day. But once again, I say "amen", and it's still raining..." So many times, we pray to God, expecting a quick fix. We cry out hearts out to Him, and expect it all to go away. As soon as we say that "amen" though, the pain continues on...but it doesn't have to. I have never ever been in a place in my life like where I am now...it is SO easy for me to do this. That if I pray hard enough, the baby is going to be perfect the next time we get to see him or her. And I am not saying that God is not capable of this, because I am more than happy to have heard stories that this has been the case. But, I know that sometimes though, after we lift our heads up and open our eyes, these "storms" may continue. He has a reason. Maybe it is to make us stronger, maybe to make us wiser, maybe to just teach us a lesson. Whatever the reason is, I know that after I say the word, "amen," I leave it in God's hands. Amen in hebrew is translated as to meaning, "so be it." God is the Ultimate Physician, the Master, the CREATOR. And all I can say to that is "Amen."